disgusted with myself. de sms sound so fake to me. and i wrote something like tat. 
i am hurt, bt  yet i pretend i'm nt. a brave front. a defense mechanism. wadeva u call tat.
arh. my tone suggest tat i dun care. dun care at all. and try as i might to convince my self of tat, i cannt.
i care too much too deeply. it dosen't help matters tat i'm estrangled by ......... 

i tink i try too much to maintain tat uncaring facade. too much tat my intention is obvious. 
perhaps its de innate need to be constantly in de centre of attention. perhaps. 
arhhhh. i dunno LAH  HECK LA!

lotte says  to post some more interesting one sentence post. so here it is:

lingxian sucks. she is evil. my msn nick put liddat for 2 days le she still dun wan come online. hmph. kill her. she fully deserve to become my slave after all de things she has done to make me suffer. bettychan sucks.